Fri, 12 Jun 98, Reader writes:
Hello, I have been having some things happen lately to me and I really need some help. I guess you could say I am having strange feelings and I don't know what they mean to me. I am 31 yrs old, my grandfather (paternal) died when I was 12 from lung cancer complications after being sick for awhile. I have always missed him but never really thought about him for days at a time, usually during holidays or when we would visit other family members. He lived 3 hrs away so I didn't even see him very much.
I have always been interested in psychic and paranormal happenings. I like reading my horoscope but never thought much about anything else. Approx 5-6 months ago I started having a feeling like I needed to do something, that doesn't make alot of sense but it was a feeling I had that I needed to start researching the paranormal for some reason. Thoughts of my grandfather come to me daily now. Nothing specific, just a feeling that I miss him and need to be able to communicate with him. I have no idea why this is happening to me. It got so bad that I started to see a psychologist, of course all I got out of that was she wanted me to take Prozac, I am not crazy, this is very real! I have read every book that I could find on communication but I am unable to make anything work for me and need some help. I feel like I am missing a message from him, like I am supposed to be able to communicate. I am going through some tough times right now and I feel like he might be trying to help me or give me advice. Does this sound too crazy to you? I have tried all the exercises I found in the books, I don't want to give up but the feelings I have are taking over my life, I am at the point now where I have to find something out! Any help would be greatly appreciated and I have no idea where to turn.
Sat, 13 Jun 98, Reader writes:
This is the second email that I have sent to you. I sent the first one yesterday and have felt the need to send a additional letter. I have been very nervous and anxious since yesterday. I had let you know about the feelings I am having concerning my grandfather. I think it is much more than that involved! I will try to put it into words the best way that I can, although it is tough to express exactly what I mean.
I feel like I have a purpose in this life that I am not fulfilling. I know there is something that I am supposed to be doing to help other people. I just don't know where to start! I have been this way for as long as I can remember. I carry other peoples problems with me. I want to help make the world better. I cry about things that happen in this country and in other countries because in the big picture, I feel so helpless to make a real difference.
I am very spiritual and feel like I have some kind of gift, although I may be wrong. I do sense people around me that have passed on. My problem is that I am not sure if I really feel a presence or if I just want to feel a presence around me. I am so troubled about my feelings, I need to know what is happening to me. I sometimes I think I had a past life where I saw alot of bad things happen and now I need to make a effort to make the world better. I could be totally wrong, maybe I am just going through a bad time and I am looking for answers. Either way, I feel as though I need some kind of help from people who will not think I am crazy!
In my previous letter, I talked about the need to communicate with my grandfather. How can I do that? I think I would feel so much better. Right now, I really need something to set me on the right track. My feelings are very real. Thank you for helping me in advance. I have no idea where to turn for help and I am miserable!
Mon, 15 Jun 98, Otherplane's reply to reader:
For so long, your grandfather waited for you to recognize that you're gifted but you never did. So he decided to interfere and let you be aware of that feeling not knowing what it was. He stayed earthbound by choice for you, to let you have what you deserve...that gift. When the time comes, then he will go to what we call "heaven" and you will not have that feeling of missing your grandfather.
Now that you are aware of that feeling...he will let you know of what kind of gift you have...probably in your dreams...I know what it is but he will tell you. When that time comes then you will know and at the same time he will be automatically be released.
You cannot communicate with him but when you feel that feeling, then he is around and tell him how much you appreciate his love and concern. Talk to him. Ask him about your gift. He knows what to do next. Relax, you are not crazy...you have to be balanced to get things going. Now that you are aware of what is stressing you...reset yourself and start anew.
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