OTHERPLANE

Many times throughout your tales I have noticed "your friends" saying it isn't the right time for certain truths to be made public. For me, this enabled me to overcome my fear of getting involved with something evil. You hit the nail on the head where I am concerned about the paranormal. Many times I have been interested, but fear has always made me drop my searching. Probably due to the stories and presence of bad things I have been near at (my mother got involved with black witchcraft, and though it is hard for me to learn from others mistakes, that is one mistake that I want no part of). Yet, as we all have, I know that I have a special gift and I would very much like to strengthen it and use it for the good of humanity. There is so much hardship in the world and I know deep down that I have a special purpose in life and the ability to make an impact on those around me. I also have the sense that my gift could be used for good or bad and I fear that my ignorance would enable this gift to be used improperly.

As I have endured alot over my short time on earth, and already unintentionally caused pain to others, I dread being the cause of more. For there is already too much suffering in the world. If there is a way for you to allow me to know what my gift or gifts are and ways to research and use them beneficially I would be very thankful and of course would do my best to help others.

A few years ago I woke up in the middle of the night and saw an older woman standing by my bedside looking down upon me. She was dressed in black and it looked like she had a nuns color on. Though she could have been a pilgrim also. At the time this happened, I had been reading about the paranormal and was really relating to parts of it, I could almost feel myself soaring, yet my body was so chilled with this presence that I clenched my Bible to me and had to go into deep prayer to release the fear enough to sleep. Still, this image has always stayed with me, and I wonder if there is something this lady wants or needs from me. Even though I only saw her that one time, I wonder about her and the incident. I haven't read about any of the unexplained since then until now though.

Through prayer, I have had a few good and amazing experiences with healing animals, but I have felt touched by the "Omnipotent," and that it was his power that allowed their healing through my care. Like I said, I don't know enough about the entities around us to know exactly what has happened, but instinctively know that their presence is around each of us.

I have even heard a very authoritative voice in my head that wound up saving a friend of mine and my own life. A little over 6 years ago in Colorado, a small thing really, but with enormous impact. I was cruising 85 miles per hour through curvy mountains and I saw something fly by the window that I just assumed was a peice of mud from my truck tire. Not one minute later, a voice (definitely not my own) sternly said "STOP THE TRUCK." Not even thinking about arguing (which I seem to always do when told what to do), I immediately pulled over and as the truck began slowing down, the front end was wobbling fiercely and it got worse the nearer we came to stopping. When Desi and I got out, there was only one lug bolt left on the truck tire, which was slanted and ready to come off, straining the partially sheared ug bolt. I know that someone or something saved our lives that day, byt never knew who/what or why. I used to always joke about having 9 guardian angels because I lived such a reckless life, and after a month of helping me they needed a 3 month vacation. Maybe that statement was closer to the truth than I thought.

In 1989, I was supposedly pronounced dead, although I am not sure this is true, from a wreck I was in. My last conscious thought was, "SHIT, there's not enough time," when I saw a vehicle careening over the hill towards me. Then I remember floating in the blackest black I have never seen here on earth. It is hard to describe but it was a complete nothingness, and yet, I also felt a presence (more than one) but nobody would talk to me or answer my questions. I knew they were there. I could feel myself searching and straining, as if in slow motion, through my brain for information that I knew was there but I could not find it. I was unconscious for eight and a half hours and had to go by what others told me because I truly was not sure if I was really dead or not, and was in a kind of no man's land. I do know that my body was not with me in the blackness.

Any information you could share with me about this would be greatly appreciated.

Fri, 7 Nov 97, Otherplane's reply to reader:

It's refreshing to know that there are specially gifted people like you out there, trying to cope with the unknown and are willing to understand the purpose for being.

Although "our friends" (twenty four of them) are gone, the "one" remain with us. This has in no way decreased our ability to communicate and investigate on whatever we wish. It is business as usual with us.

This is what we found:

The lady in black was your mother and she did practice witchcraft, but she was not a "full fledged one". What she had was a gift that she didn't fully understand and she has passed that gift on to you. This gift is a powerful gift and if it goes out-of-control, many could get hurt. We have never encountered an individual with such a gift, until now, but in dealing with the paranormal, "all things are possible".

Your special gift has to do with the ability to impose "FEAR" unto others either directly or indirectly (long range). Example: Knowing an individual has evil tendencies to hurt people. You could impose an enormous amount of fear on that individual, that would cause that individual to stop the evilness within. Another example: You could use your gift to help individuals from hurting themselves by instilling some fear on them, that would cause them to stop whatever activities they were engaged in. Should you choose to accept your gift and decide to use it for a good cause, you need to practice focusing your thoughts and energies. You cannot use your gift when you are depressed or angry, or the opposite effect will be the result.

As for your encounters with voices, your guardian angels were warning you to take control of yourself or you will never fulfill your purpose. Your encounter with blackness had to do with "near death experience" related to the wreck you were in. Because you didn't see the light (from heaven), it wasn't your time to die.

Sun, 9 Nov 97, Reader writes:

Thanks for your indepth reply. Although it has brought many questions up and memories that were put aside to the outer stretches of my brain, I am sorry to read about "your friends" leaving. When I had written I thought they were still with you.

You said it was my mother by my side that evening. This makes sense that she would want to relinquish her gift (curse) whatever it may be. My mother and I have not been involved with each other throughout the years, but our bond is strong. When I was 19, she told me about her living nightmares. She said she would wake up at night and her nightmares would be going on around her in the room. She never told me how she got them to stop. My father also told me about the night that she woke him up and asked him if he could see the grim reaper standing at the foot of their bed. He said he did, and then said that nothing has ever filled his body with as much fear as he had felt at that moment. That day they burned every occult object in the house and never discussed any of it again. Shortly thereafter, they got a divorce and I have only been in their lives off and on since.

Thinking about the unforgettable spine chilling fear that I felt when this gift was bestowed on me, I can relate to some of what it is about. Frankly, it scares me though, and yet I have never been one to turn tail and run from responsibility. Having already survived much pain (physical and emotional), I have learned to accept what must be done and trudge on like an old work horse. I will do everything in my power to keep from hurting anyone because my top priority is to help people but I haven't quite figured out how this can help anyone except by keeping it leashed. We all seem to fear what we don't know, and each of us has our own individual fears. Playing on people's fears has never been something I have remotely considered to do as I have never intentionally done anything to hurt anyone, but I have felt great guilt whenever my actions have caused another any kind of pain.

Now, I seem to be caught between a rock and a hard place. I know I have been given this gift "FEAR" for a purpose but for the life of me, I do not know how I am supposed to practice using this gift without unleashing it or hurting anyone. Yet, I feel the only way to control it is to understand it and use it, otherwise it may end up in the hands of someone or something else that may use it for bad things. What I'm asking for is guidance and some more information about using this gift. I always held to a line from the Bible, "with faith there should be no fear." This gift is somehow connected and so is my faith.

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